It was that short time ago when I was visiting at my sister-in-laws house right before I was to head out on a work trip, when my husband called me, and over the phone told me he had gone and pulled paperwork - paperwork that would eventually need to be signed and filed - filed with the courthouse - filed at the courthouse to end our marriage.
I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY!
I felt a sharp pain in my chest
I felt like I couldn't breath
I couldn't move
I could feel the tears falling down my face
But there was no sound coming out of my mouth
I could speak, I could move, I remember crying on my sister-in-laws couch for hours, and I drove down the mountain in tears. The longest drive of my entire life.
Our marriage had not been perfect, far from it
but we had been going to marriage counseling through our church and I really believed God was working on our marriage. Our counselor had given us this book
I wish I had received this book 4 years earlier. I truly believe it would have saved our marriage.
These next 12 months I tend to reflect on what I learned through this tragedy, how I have grown and who I am today. So much beauty can come from the ashes if we chose to. I chose to 5 years ago, and while it was/is a rocky road, the Lord Jesus has walked with me every step of the way. Even when I continued to make stupid, ungodly decisions, He was right there to show me the right way.
Pray me through this time, would you? I'm going to share my story I have shared with only a few folks. Pray that God will be glorified and someone might be saved as a result of my story - His story for my life.
