A WORD

Here's the Word today from my devotional - it blessed me to the point when I read the first line my mouth just dropped.  Did it do that for you when you read it?

      THIS IS A TIME in your life when you must
      learn to let go: of loved ones, of possessions, of control.
      In order to let go of something that is precious to you, you
      need to rest in My Presence, where you are complete.  Take
      time to bask in the Light of My Love.  As you relax more and
      more, your grasping hand gradually opens up, releasing your
      prized possession into My care.

      You can feel secure, even in the midst of cataclysmic changes,
      through awareness of My continual Presence.  The One who
      never leaves you is the same One who never changes:  I am the
      same yesterday, today, and forever.  As you release more and more
      things into My care, remember that I never let go of your hand.
      Herein lies your security, which no one and no circumstance can 
      take from you.   (Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young, 24 March)

Be blessed today friends, and rest in His Presence.

Topsy Turvey

The title of this post has been the story of my life the past few weeks.  A little inside out and upside down.

I received an email from a friend a few weeks ago now, that really threw my life in a tailspin.  It caught me off guard, made me vulnerable and made me reflect on some things in my life I thought I had put behind me - a year ago.

When I first read the email, I was mad.  I slammed my computer shut because the computer was the mode by which the information was delivered so it had to be my computers fault - right?

I must say, at first, I did a really good job of standing my ground.  Of holding fast and true to what I know is best for me.  But was time progressed and I was not daily in the word...I was unable to resist and I could have put myself in a bad situation.  HOWEVER....

God is bigger and knows the plans He has for us.  I was praying...for guidance and direction but I wasn't saturating myself in the Word.  He was taking the little bit I was giving Him, looking at my heart and helping me decide what was best for me, even when sometime I wasn't doing a good job of it myself.

I was able to fly home for a few days this week...literally...a few days...and when I stopped over in the ATL as a layover, I attempted to make a bad decision again.  HOWEVER...

God had a different plan.  None of the phone booths worked.  Not a one in the whole B concourse.  How awesome is that?

I long desperately for the arms of my Heavenly Father to be wrapped around me, I just don't feel them right now.  Might be because I am holding Him at arm's length.  Might be because I am slightly irritated that  I don't have clear direction for my life come September.  Might be that I am just out of touch with Him and feeling His strong, warm embrace would mean I would have to be broken before Him and right now I am scared to be broken...AGAIN.

I'm a stubborn stubborn gal.  Ask anyone who knows me in the slightest.  I got the nickname "hammer" this last trip I was on.    
Lord - you be the hammer.
Lord - you break me, shape me into that person You desire me to be.