Here's the Word today from my devotional - it blessed me to the point when I read the first line my mouth just dropped. Did it do that for you when you read it?
THIS IS A TIME in your life when you must
learn to let go: of loved ones, of possessions, of control.
In order to let go of something that is precious to you, you
need to rest in My Presence, where you are complete. Take
time to bask in the Light of My Love. As you relax more and
more, your grasping hand gradually opens up, releasing your
prized possession into My care.
You can feel secure, even in the midst of cataclysmic changes,
through awareness of My continual Presence. The One who
never leaves you is the same One who never changes: I am the
same yesterday, today, and forever. As you release more and more
things into My care, remember that I never let go of your hand.
Herein lies your security, which no one and no circumstance can
take from you. (Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young, 24 March)
Be blessed today friends, and rest in His Presence.
Saturday, 24 March 2012
Tuesday, 20 March 2012
Topsy Turvey
The title of this post has been the story of my life the past few weeks. A little inside out and upside down.
I received an email from a friend a few weeks ago now, that really threw my life in a tailspin. It caught me off guard, made me vulnerable and made me reflect on some things in my life I thought I had put behind me - a year ago.
When I first read the email, I was mad. I slammed my computer shut because the computer was the mode by which the information was delivered so it had to be my computers fault - right?
I must say, at first, I did a really good job of standing my ground. Of holding fast and true to what I know is best for me. But was time progressed and I was not daily in the word...I was unable to resist and I could have put myself in a bad situation. HOWEVER....
God is bigger and knows the plans He has for us. I was praying...for guidance and direction but I wasn't saturating myself in the Word. He was taking the little bit I was giving Him, looking at my heart and helping me decide what was best for me, even when sometime I wasn't doing a good job of it myself.
I was able to fly home for a few days this week...literally...a few days...and when I stopped over in the ATL as a layover, I attempted to make a bad decision again. HOWEVER...
God had a different plan. None of the phone booths worked. Not a one in the whole B concourse. How awesome is that?
I long desperately for the arms of my Heavenly Father to be wrapped around me, I just don't feel them right now. Might be because I am holding Him at arm's length. Might be because I am slightly irritated that I don't have clear direction for my life come September. Might be that I am just out of touch with Him and feeling His strong, warm embrace would mean I would have to be broken before Him and right now I am scared to be broken...AGAIN.
I'm a stubborn stubborn gal. Ask anyone who knows me in the slightest. I got the nickname "hammer" this last trip I was on.
Lord - you be the hammer.
Lord - you break me, shape me into that person You desire me to be.
I received an email from a friend a few weeks ago now, that really threw my life in a tailspin. It caught me off guard, made me vulnerable and made me reflect on some things in my life I thought I had put behind me - a year ago.
When I first read the email, I was mad. I slammed my computer shut because the computer was the mode by which the information was delivered so it had to be my computers fault - right?
I must say, at first, I did a really good job of standing my ground. Of holding fast and true to what I know is best for me. But was time progressed and I was not daily in the word...I was unable to resist and I could have put myself in a bad situation. HOWEVER....
God is bigger and knows the plans He has for us. I was praying...for guidance and direction but I wasn't saturating myself in the Word. He was taking the little bit I was giving Him, looking at my heart and helping me decide what was best for me, even when sometime I wasn't doing a good job of it myself.
I was able to fly home for a few days this week...literally...a few days...and when I stopped over in the ATL as a layover, I attempted to make a bad decision again. HOWEVER...
God had a different plan. None of the phone booths worked. Not a one in the whole B concourse. How awesome is that?
I long desperately for the arms of my Heavenly Father to be wrapped around me, I just don't feel them right now. Might be because I am holding Him at arm's length. Might be because I am slightly irritated that I don't have clear direction for my life come September. Might be that I am just out of touch with Him and feeling His strong, warm embrace would mean I would have to be broken before Him and right now I am scared to be broken...AGAIN.
I'm a stubborn stubborn gal. Ask anyone who knows me in the slightest. I got the nickname "hammer" this last trip I was on.
Lord - you be the hammer.
Lord - you break me, shape me into that person You desire me to be.
Saturday, 18 February 2012
Five Years
It was that short time ago when I was visiting at my sister-in-laws house right before I was to head out on a work trip, when my husband called me, and over the phone told me he had gone and pulled paperwork - paperwork that would eventually need to be signed and filed - filed with the courthouse - filed at the courthouse to end our marriage.
I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY!
I felt a sharp pain in my chest
I felt like I couldn't breath
I couldn't move
I could feel the tears falling down my face
But there was no sound coming out of my mouth
I could speak, I could move, I remember crying on my sister-in-laws couch for hours, and I drove down the mountain in tears. The longest drive of my entire life.
Our marriage had not been perfect, far from it
but we had been going to marriage counseling through our church and I really believed God was working on our marriage. Our counselor had given us this book
I wish I had received this book 4 years earlier. I truly believe it would have saved our marriage.
These next 12 months I tend to reflect on what I learned through this tragedy, how I have grown and who I am today. So much beauty can come from the ashes if we chose to. I chose to 5 years ago, and while it was/is a rocky road, the Lord Jesus has walked with me every step of the way. Even when I continued to make stupid, ungodly decisions, He was right there to show me the right way.
Pray me through this time, would you? I'm going to share my story I have shared with only a few folks. Pray that God will be glorified and someone might be saved as a result of my story - His story for my life.
I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY!
I felt a sharp pain in my chest
I felt like I couldn't breath
I couldn't move
I could feel the tears falling down my face
But there was no sound coming out of my mouth
I could speak, I could move, I remember crying on my sister-in-laws couch for hours, and I drove down the mountain in tears. The longest drive of my entire life.
Our marriage had not been perfect, far from it
but we had been going to marriage counseling through our church and I really believed God was working on our marriage. Our counselor had given us this book
I wish I had received this book 4 years earlier. I truly believe it would have saved our marriage.
These next 12 months I tend to reflect on what I learned through this tragedy, how I have grown and who I am today. So much beauty can come from the ashes if we chose to. I chose to 5 years ago, and while it was/is a rocky road, the Lord Jesus has walked with me every step of the way. Even when I continued to make stupid, ungodly decisions, He was right there to show me the right way.
Pray me through this time, would you? I'm going to share my story I have shared with only a few folks. Pray that God will be glorified and someone might be saved as a result of my story - His story for my life.
Sunday, 1 January 2012
I RESOLVE
I'm running in a new area of the country that I have heard about for a long time but am only now visiting. I've heard so many wonderful things about this place I just thought it had been hyped up too much!
Friday was my 1st run outside. We started off on what looked like a rough trail, but a trail nonetheless. About 15 mins into the run, the run leader went off the trail and literally had us running the mountains that surround our location.
Let me explain a little about me and running before I continue:
1. I am a fairly new runner. Been running about 3 years and just this year got serious about it.
2. I wear VIBRAM 5 finger shoes when I run
3. 95% of my running is done on treadmills due to the locations in which I am in
We did almost 3.5 miles, mostly on mountains with ROCKS (in my 5 fingers)
Then today...after a 4am end to our New Years Eve party (no, I was not partying but I was apart of the cleanup crew) I got up at 0930 and we ran again. I was hoping, due to some guidance we received that we shouldn't run the hills today, that we would take it easy. Hahaha - I was hoping wrong. We ran them and ran them and ran them. Almost 4 miles.
Some of the things I really enjoy about the gal I am running with right now are:
-She keeps me at a good pace. She doesn't run too slow, too fast, she knows when we need to rest and just walk.
-She isn't scared to get off the trail and explore what other adventures we might be mission out on.
When I run, I realize things God is reminding me - steady pace and be willing to go outside the norm, what you know. These are important reminders for me especially in 2012.
I am always going, going, going. When I am at home, I am flying from here, there and everywhere. When I am traveling, I am working, working, working. It's time to slow down and find my steady pace. To realize what may be comfortable, what may be familiar, may not be where God wants me to be.
I have a feeling this year, God is going to ask me to step out of my comfort zone, to start running those rocky mountains. It may be VERY uncomfortable, my feet my feel the effects of rocks under them, my muscles may feel discomfort that they have never known before, but through it all, my breath will be steady, my heart will be strong and my head will be clear.
God - I resolve to live for You completely. To follow You where You lead. To go where You tell me to go. To trust You in all areas of my life.
What are your resolutions? What are you going to "allow" (hahaha) God to do in you in 2012.
Friday was my 1st run outside. We started off on what looked like a rough trail, but a trail nonetheless. About 15 mins into the run, the run leader went off the trail and literally had us running the mountains that surround our location.
Let me explain a little about me and running before I continue:
1. I am a fairly new runner. Been running about 3 years and just this year got serious about it.
2. I wear VIBRAM 5 finger shoes when I run
3. 95% of my running is done on treadmills due to the locations in which I am in
We did almost 3.5 miles, mostly on mountains with ROCKS (in my 5 fingers)
Then today...after a 4am end to our New Years Eve party (no, I was not partying but I was apart of the cleanup crew) I got up at 0930 and we ran again. I was hoping, due to some guidance we received that we shouldn't run the hills today, that we would take it easy. Hahaha - I was hoping wrong. We ran them and ran them and ran them. Almost 4 miles.
Some of the things I really enjoy about the gal I am running with right now are:
-She keeps me at a good pace. She doesn't run too slow, too fast, she knows when we need to rest and just walk.
-She isn't scared to get off the trail and explore what other adventures we might be mission out on.
When I run, I realize things God is reminding me - steady pace and be willing to go outside the norm, what you know. These are important reminders for me especially in 2012.
I am always going, going, going. When I am at home, I am flying from here, there and everywhere. When I am traveling, I am working, working, working. It's time to slow down and find my steady pace. To realize what may be comfortable, what may be familiar, may not be where God wants me to be.
I have a feeling this year, God is going to ask me to step out of my comfort zone, to start running those rocky mountains. It may be VERY uncomfortable, my feet my feel the effects of rocks under them, my muscles may feel discomfort that they have never known before, but through it all, my breath will be steady, my heart will be strong and my head will be clear.
God - I resolve to live for You completely. To follow You where You lead. To go where You tell me to go. To trust You in all areas of my life.
What are your resolutions? What are you going to "allow" (hahaha) God to do in you in 2012.
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