D-I-V-O-R-C-E
I still cringe when a form asks my martial status. I'm married, in a relationship, single....ok fine...I'm divorced. I'm a Christian who loves God more than anything in this world but I'm divorced! Blemished. A Sinner. An imperfect person. A disgrace. The black sheep. The rebel. The weak one.
I could go on and on but even after nine years and countless nights at the foot of the cross, I still beat myself up. I still judge myself. I still ask what went wrong, when? I still can't find the place of forgiveness. I know it's right in front of me but I feel like I'm reaching into empty air. I can't grasp what's right in front of me. I can't forgive myself.
Your grace is sufficent for me. Your strength is perfect when I am weak. All of my burdens I lay at your feet. Your grace is sufficent for me.
Jesus help me remember this simple truth and help me one day to forgive myself.
