Changes

ChAnGeS

Have you ever had a dream?

And prayed and prayed that God would give you that dream?

Did you ever wonder if that dream would come true?

Did it ever come close and then slip away?

Have you ever felt like everything was falling apart around you but you knew GOD was in control, still on the throne but He was simply asking you to trust Him?

Fall 2012 I was excited about starting a new chapter in my life that was going to be very good for my career.  I was literally two weeks away from this new chapter when tragedy struck.  Nobody could have seen coming what occurred.  No one would have dreamed it on their worst enemy, but it changed my life forever and the lives of many I care about.  It also altered my career plans. 

I was confused, disappointed, frustrated, maybe even a little angry.   I thought I had done everything right to get me to that point, but tragedy struck.  It was completely beyond my control.  I thought it was God's way of giving me my dream.  Because tragedy struck, it looked like a door might be opening for me to finally have my dream.  Beauty from ashes, right?  That's what you and I have both heard, but God had different plans.  Instead...I was assigned back to Washington.   

Washington, DC:  A place that holds so many memories of a failed marriage.   The beginning of the end of my marriage.   Why would God ask me to go back there for two years?  Why would I have to drive the same roads, visit the same establishments, see remnants of my failed marriage any many corners and curves?   How would I survive?  Would I survive?

TWO LONG YEARS!

Are you asking why God would not only take your dream away when it's literally right in front of you, to only put you in a place that reminds you of pain and loss?   Are you wondering if God really cares about you?  and your happiness?

I took a job back in Washington that I knew would not give me opportunity for promotion but I would be fulfilled and happy during my time, at least professionally.   But alas, I had another terrible disappointment on the professional front.   I just didn't understand.  One thing after another after another.  On top of that, my sister now had 2 little girls and by Summer 14, yet a third.  Being 3,000 miles away was one of the hardest parts of my life, personally.  What was God's plan?  I had no idea!  None. And I didn't see answers anywhere.   

There are many things God has done in the past year to get me where I am today.   I will share a couple of those in the coming months and years but I'll tell you this much now: God is God!  He is Sovereign.  He is always on time!  He is never, ever late! He's got a plan!  HE IS ABLE!  No matter what happens, don't ever doubt that.  

Today...I write from my living room, truly living my dream.  I'm right where I have always dreamed of being, doing exactly what I love doing.   I'll tell you more about that in the coming month but just know...it is possible!  Seek the Lord, trust Him with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding.  Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.